Monday, September 23, 2013

60 Day Devotion

I mentioned in my last post about a wonderful book I had read, "Made to Crave."  Well, Lysa has also written a devotion to go along with the book.  So, I have started that today.  "Made to Crave Devotional" - 60 days to craving God, not food. 

I am wanting to read all the way through the book instead of doing each day at a time.  I am kind of crazy that way.  But I am going to work my way through one day at a time. 

Day 1 was today ... Mon, Sept 23rd. - Title "Unsettled"  Hebrews 1:3

Thought for the day:  Unsettle me in the best kind of way.  For when I allow your touch to reach the deepest parts of me - dark and dingy and hidden away too long - suddenly, a fresh wind of life twists and twirls and dances through my soul.

I have never thought about praying for God to unsettle my heart about weight loss.  I hate to admit it but I never thought about praying about me losing weight.  I didn't think God had the time.  That just isn't true.  I am learning that He wants us to yearn for Him and not for food.  That He is wanting us to come to Him first, before anything.  This is all so new to me .. but I am learning. 

Something else she put in today's devotion that really touched me was:

Goodbye to shallow efforts, self-focus and suspicious fears that I'll never find victory in this area of my life.  I am an unsettled woman who no longer wishes to take part in distractions or destructions.
Welcome deeper love for God and the realization I am made for more than this constant battle.  Welcome my unsettled heart.
 There are times when this struggle seems to not be so difficult but then there are times when I give in to that craving monster.  It is at those times that I had that I have given into to those cravings because I always end up with a headache.  I can tell that I am getting better though ...

Just the other day was my birthday and the kids made me some chocolate chip cookies.  I asked for them NOT to bake a cake because that is a hugh weakness of mine.  I ate one cookie - the smallest one - and I could barely eat the whole thing.  It made me so sick & boy at the headache later.  No more for me.  It isn't worth it.

I am still trying to make sure that I make the right decisions each day and each meal.  I am trying to make sure that I am eating every two to three hours.  I of course drink my spark and take my MNS each day. 

I think I am going to order another 24 day challenge and get that going next week.  I think it will help in this journey to lose weight.  I think it will be easier this time to follow the eating plan that goes along with it. 

Now time to go and fix supper .. thinking Mexican tonight.  I can have burritos - using the carb balance wraps, lean ground beef and light cheese.  I have the wheat chips so I can have just a couple.  I can handle that ...

Until later ....



Sunday, September 15, 2013

Losing Weight

I have always wondered why I have had a hard time losing weight and keeping it.  I have tried so many different diets and nothing would last for a long period of time.  I would follow what ever diet plan I was on at the time, lose some weight and then I would get tired of that plan.  I would start eating food again and back comes the weight. 

Yes, I am your classic yo-yo dieter.  Boy, at the excuses I would have too. I had some of the best ones.  My favorite one is my thyroid issues. 

If I believed the excuses then I didn't have to face the real issues.  I didn't really want to look for answers.  Why did I need answers?  I knew what I was doing ... right? 

However, I was miserable deep down.  Every time I ate what I knew I shouldn't eat, I was miserable.  The guilt was horrible.  The more miserable I became the more that I ate wrong.  Those comfort foods was calling my name and very loudly.

Even though I was taking AdvoCare products and feeling so much better, especially with the new found energy level.  I was also finding out that no amount of products was just going to take this weight off.  AdvoCare products are the best around but they are still NO magic pills.  You still have to make the right choices.  Really??? 

But how? 

The answer is in the book I just read ... Made to Crave by Lysa TerKeurst.  The answer to all my questions about losing weight, making the right choices and how I could keep it off was in the Bible the whole time.  To be honest, it isn't somewhere I ever thought to look.  The book "Made to Crave" taught me that I was replacing food for the craving I was having to be closer to God.  We have to put God first in our lives, even in the matter to food. 

So, that it what I am working on now ... making sure I am putting God first.  Let God fill my cravings instead of food.  I want to share what I have found and am still finding.  I promise I will be posting more on my blog than I have in the past.  I hope through my experiences with thyroid issues and trying to lose weight, maybe I can help one other person with their struggle.