Oct 21st

Man, what a week I have had.  I have been in a lot of pain for over a week.  Went to Urgent Care on Saturday and after doing x-ray they said it was kidney stones.  So, I followed up with my Urologist and she ended up saying that I had stones in my kidney but they were ok and they wouldn't be making me have all this pain.  So, I ended up after a week, calling my female doctor.  He found two cyst on my ovary.   I guess that is a good thing - at least I know for sure what it is.

Now, I am not quite sure that the cysts were causes this horrible pain.  I honestly believe that I had stones and that on this past Saturday, when the pain was the worse, I passed the ones that I had.  Since this past Saturday the pain hasn't been as bad.  I can handle it with just some Tylenol instead of pain pills. I guess I will never know though ...

In this down time, I have realized a few things.

1) I don't like when people have to do things for me.  I like being in control and I like doing things for myself.  I don't like having to depend on people.
2 ) That I need to take control of my health.  Whether I can prevent cysts from coming back or not (these aren't my first ones) I want to be healthy.  I want to be healthy.
3) You really find out who your friends are when you are sick.  I had people check on me that I didn't think would and then some that didn't even call that I thought would.  I am so thankful for the people that are in my life and that I know will be there for me. It makes me think about being there for others when they need me.  Am I there for others?  This too needs to change.

So, what changes do I need to make to be healthier?  Boy, that is a big question and where do I get started.  Drinking more water - making sure I get some exercise in - and making sure I eat healthier!!  I just need to take the first step and get started.  I know the main thing is just getting started and NOT quitting.  I have already started making some changes but I know that I can do so much better. So here we go ..... step after step

Mon, Oct 13th

What a crazy weekend and day.  I had to go to an urgent care on Saturday and found out that I have kidney stones.  I don't like having kidney stones.  They are NOT fun. 

So while I am having some down time I am trying to get some things done.  Thank goodness I have a new book to read.  I would really go crazy if I didn't have one to read.  Got some small projects I have been putting off that I have time to work on now. 

I figured I have two choices:  I can either sit here and grip and complain because I can't do what I had planned or I can enjoy this down time and find something that I can do.  It doesn't help to whine and complain - in fact, it just makes the time worse.  I do believe that everything happens for reason.  Sometimes we just need some down time. 

Off to do some reading ..... I do hope these stones pass quickly though. 

Monday Oct 6th

I have been thinking a lot the past couple of days about goals.  I haven't ever been one to set goals.  In the past, I just haven't been good at hitting whatever goal that I set.  I guess I would set them and do nothing; then wonder why I didn't hit it. 

In the new book that I am reading - Act like a Success - Think like a Success by Steve Harvey.  In the chapters that I read this weekend really emphasized setting goals.  That is really is important.  This is what he says in the book:

Goals are essential because they give you realistic, measurable, and specific targets.  They are necessary benchmarks that give you the energy, confidence and assurance to keep moving in the right direction toward your dreams.  They can also serve as a handy map for attaining your dreams.

So, I am going to sit down and write out me some goals.  I do have several areas of my life that I am working towards a specific thing.  One of the things I am working on is losing weight.  This is a journey I have been on for awhile.   But something that I really want - really bad.  So, goals I will set.  In this area, I am going to set small goals so that I can use them as stepping stones to keep going. 

I do have other areas, but I think I will concentrate on this one at the moment.  I can do this ....

The goals shapes the plan - The plan shapes the action - The action achieves the results and The results brings success.

From Failing Forward by John C. Maxwell

Now to get busy .... to be continued