One day at a time ....

I try so hard to be positive and not be negative.  However, there are times when I just want to cry and yell out that I don't feel well. 

I cant' do it anymore.  I think people deserve to know what a person with thyroid issues really deals with in a day.  It isn't easy.  Some days are so hard to just function and then other days it is easy. 

I know I had said before that I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism over 25 yrs ago.  To be honest, I can't remember when it was - I just know it was before my oldest son was born and he just turned 26.  I had  my thyroid removed in 2001 and it was cancerous. 

My family is the only one that knows what I go through on a day to day basis and there are times I even hide it from them.  There are days I just don't want to get out of bed.  I have a hard time focusing on getting anything done.  If I read or watch TV - most of the time I dont' even know what is going on.  I will have to re-read pages so it will sink in.  I make myself on those days do the lest amount that I can do. 

Then there are days that my legs, hips and back hurt so bad it is hard to walk.  I just want to sit and cry.  But I get up and do anyway.  I feel like an old woman on these days. 

I know one thing for sure.  I am so thankful for Advocare and their products.  (**) I know what I was like before drinking my first spark.  I was a total mess.  Instead of having a day here or there it was every single day.  I know with these products I am having more energy, my brain fog is gone, and my joint pains are not as bad. 

So, even though I still have some not so good days, with my Advocare products they are not as bad as they could be without the products.  I wont' be without my products.  I don't want to go back to the way it use to be.


(**The products are not intended to diagnose, treat, cure or prevent any disease.)

Strength

I found strength that I didn't realize I had .... but I realized I have had it all along.

For months now, I have been going through some trials.  I was being accused of something that I wasn't doing or nor I have ever done it.  One of the bad things about this one was a friend of mine told me they were checking things out behind my back.  They were trying to find something.  Not once did they ask me and still haven't asked me.

Just when I think maybe things are calming down something else happens and it totally throws me.  Different group of people but once again being accused of doing something that I didn't do.  I am being accused of doing something to hurt someone else.  They are saying that I did it intentially to take something from them.  This hurts me to the core.  This is suppose to be a friend of mine or at least I thought.

The past few months has really broken me and taken me down.  It has really showed me that we can only put our trust in God.  People will lie to your face and pretend that they are your friend.  I think that is what has hurt me the worse is thinking someone is your friend.  Then I realized that money was more important to them than our friendship.

At my lowest this week, I cried out to God - that I couldn't take it anymore.  That I was at the end of my rope and I was barely hanging on.  That is when I felt things change.  I knew God was right there with me and that whatever someone threw my way I could make it through.  He reassured me that I had done nothing wrong in either situation and that he would take care of things.

I have always known that things that happen in our lives happens for a reason.  I kept wondering why I was going through all that I was going through ...  So, I asked God what was I suppose to learn out of all this ... "Strength"  was the one word that I kept hearing.  That I was strong enough to get through this .. .that I was strong enough to keep going.

We are strong enough. When we put our lives in God's hands.  No matter what the trial we are facing God will give us the strength to overcome.  I am living proof of this ...

I am truly GRATEFUL for God's grace, mercy and faithfulness.  Thank You God!!  I truly could not have made it through the past couple of months without you right there with me. 

Summertime - June

It is hard to believe that today is the first of June.  Time is going by way too quickly.  However, with June comes so many fun things and summertime.  What all do you do in the month of June?

For my household it means so many different things.  My daughter that is in high school has basketball all month of June, from camps to fundamental skills time.  My sweet granddaughter's 1st birthday is in June.  Hard to believe she is already turning a year old.  She is so sweet & adorable.

June also includes my sisters birthday.  My oldest sons 26th birthday.  Can I please say it again?  Seriously, where has the time gone?  I really remember the day that he was born.  I cherish everyday with my kids and they do grow up way too quickly.  Also, the month of June is my anniversary.  It will be number 29 for us.  They have been some good years but we have been through our rough times too, but we never gave up.

Even with all that we have going on in the month of June, I love the lazy days of summer.  I love finding a pool for us to go to.  My dream is to have my own one day.  I love grilling out - hamburgers, hotdogs, steaks and the list goes on and on.  I love making a fire in the backyard at night.  Making smore's is the best.

Got to say that Fall is actually my favorite time of year, but summer is fun.  I hope that you and your family will take advantage of these long lazy days of summer to enjoy each other.  Get outside and enjoy the weather.

Would love to hear to somethings that your family loves to do special in the month of June and even summer.  Can't wait to hear .....